My mother is in Europe right now. I am insanely jealous. I have never been across the ocean. I have been to the Caribbean, but not to Europe. Let's go, right now. Pack up our stuff and head overseas. If I had any sort of monetary income, I would be on the next flight. However, when reality sets in I realize I pay to work and I have no money to speak of.
As I mentioned before Summer is fast approaching here which means August graduation is coming up very quickly. A good portion of my friends are going to be graduating and leaving. This reality is heartbreaking. When this happened to me last year I was nothing short of broken hearted. Everyone is going on with their lives and I am so excited for them, however, if time could just stop for a little bit, I would be ok with that.
I wish we all won the lottery and could go away, on vacation. A getaway, a refresher, something, to recharge our batteries for the next 81 days until graduation. I have decided that sometimes, an escape is good. An escape to get away from all of the stresses of life and just be. With friends, alone, with a significant other, with family, anything. Just let me get away. Just enjoy life as it comes, and forget for a moment that life is hard. To remember that life is good because God is good. Things down here and go, go go all the time, I find it helpful to pull away and refocus my life. Focus on the good things, like sunshine, and little German cities, and beaches, and the smell of suntan lotion. Ahhhh the little things.
I used to get annoyed with people would turn any inanimate object into a "god thing". But I think sometimes it is good too see that God blesses us a thousand times a day. He loves us, and is desperate for our attention so he will send us little gifts just to remind us. But when we get so busy that we miss them, we start to forget they are there. And I have been finding that in turn i forget God is there, with me, every step of the way. I soon try to do everything in my own strength...and it goes downhill from there.
I need to get away - but right now - I cannot.
