some big changes are happening here.
if you know me at all you know I HATE change.
or at least I used to- I used to freak out but surprisngly this time I am ok.
so here is the deal. you may or may not know but I have what is called a brother core, together with my core we are a family core. when i got here it was a 12 person family core. then one brother left so we had 11, then recently (like a week ago) one of my brothers got dismissed (hense the drama that was going on- long story)
so we had a 10 person family core, which is tiny. but we were close we ate most meals together, sat in church together, sat in class together.
well last night we got some news. Our brother core is no longer our brother core. since there were so few guys the HA thought it would be best if they got adopted into another core. so they have joined another core. and thier CA will now be an assistant to thier dorm director. but here is the catch. my first brothers NEW core already had two sister cores we couldn't be a third that would be chaos- so we were brother coreless.
so we have joined another family core. we now have a new sister core and a new brother core.
so all the girls in my room are devestated. i mean its a big change- they were a close family- they've been through a LOT together. and at first i was excited because i know a few of the guys in my new brother core-
but then i realized this is not ok. this is sad. we had so many plans as a family- my sisters are hurting, my brothers are upset, my brother core CA had to step down my CA has to open up to new people. what if the new brothers dont want us? what if they dont like us?
But at wed. night service me and God hashed it out. this is good. this is HIS plan. he planned this- there is a reason. These men that he has placed in our lives are going to help us. a lot of girls need healing because of skewed versions of "good guy friends" a lot of girls need pursuers- and spiritual brothers to be the LEADERS.
these guys have big shoes to fill we LOVED our brothers- but i think if they step up to the challenge of our emotional, dramatic core- they will grow and we will grow. the sister core can learn from us too- and we from them. they don't have a very united family and ours was closer than close so we are going to bring unity to them.
so there are good things- yes i am sad- yes it is WEIRD but its good. bring it on, God I;m ready. I came here to change right?
I got this email from my FIRST (not old) brother Brandon I will share a few parts with you.
Mary: Well… You’ve been thrown a something nasty girl. You as a January are going to be an ACA to a sister core that has been literally turned upside-down. If it couldn’t have gotten worse, it just did. Mary you have been a joy to be around these past few months. I’ve loved having you as a sister and you make me smile every time I see you. Mary, God has a plan through this to grow you in ways you couldn’t begin to imagine. This is going to prepare you for something HUGE God is calling you to, for God has called you to greatness.
(ACA is the LEADER of the room and due to past events everyone in my room is going to be on probation so i have to take the baton...)
Also… if you sisters fall off the face of the earth, because this brother core’s amazing… I guess that’s awesome (because we won’t have to kill them), but I can’t loose my sisters completely. I can’t cover up the moments we’ve shared. I love you girls.
But… God has a plan… God has a plan…choose to get better…not bitter.
MUCH LOVE!!!!!!!!
-Brandon.
precious right? so- here we go. I'm ready Lord.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
UPG LTE
Meet Kawkway- 16 years old, pregnant, Buddist. She lives in the country of 'Back 40'. Her father is the leader of her tribe, two Buddist munks live with her but she doesn't like them because they can't talk to her or accept anything from her. She worships Buddah, fire, water, trees, stars, and is a firm beliver in reincarnation.
One day a group of strangers comes to her village. They don't look or dress like they and they can't talk to her, but they are nice and she likes them.
Her Father and Mother need Kawkway to find a husband because she is pregnant so they give her to the leader of the strangers, Skylar. Having no idea what is going on Skylar joins KayKway as they dance around the fire, and they are married, except Skylar won't bow to the fire god, none of the strangers will. They won't worship the star gods, or Buddah instead they "crucify" eachother and play music in a forgein tongue.
The next morning Kawkay and her friends take the girl strangers to get water from the water god. They take the long way so they can stop and get flowers for thier god as a gift. On the way the strangers talk about how they only have one really big god, the village girls do not understand. The girls live in fear of thier gods, if they do not worhsip them and give them gifts they will strike them down or curse their people.
The girls refuse to bow down to the water god, they say thier god will be sad if they bow down. They tell Kawkway thier god loves them, she doesn't understand her gods are angry and don't love her. The village girls fear the water god will strike down the strangers but they insist thier god is bigger and will protect them. The village girls make the strangers walk 5 steps behind them so they don't get struck by lightning when they do.
All the tribes of the "back 40" are called to a meeting. The government is there. they tell KawKway and her people about the strangers. They tell us they are liars, that they lied to come here, they said they wanted to come so they could take our culture with them, instead they have been trying to change us to all be the same. They tell us the strangers are Americans who kill thier babies and make their 16 year olds work for McDonalds.
Then they bring out two of thier soilders who had been 'saved' by the Americans. They beat them in front of the tribes, they are traitors. They kill the wife as the husband watches then beat him to death. Next the Tribal Leader of Back 40 speaks to the people. He tells us the American's 'Jesus' is a liar and only brings divison. they bring outa native girl who has been converted- she never told because she was afraid. her brother can not believe his sister would betray him and their country like that. The Government handed him a gun- he shoots his sister than turns the gun on himself.
All this information confuses KawKway. Later that day KawKway loses her baby. She assumes it is Skylar that killed her baby because he tried to bring her Jesus that poisoned her baby.
The American girls try to explain that Jesus does love her and he has a plan for her life because he loves her. The government comes by the camp- and hear the name of Jesus and take away her friends to jail. They returned later- but she doesn't know what to think of them because the Government convinced her that they were liars.
A few hours later KawKway's dad- Ratiti comes running back to camp screaming because he was blind! All the village people pray to Buddah and the fire god- but still he screams with pain. The Americans lay hands on Ratiti and pray to Jesus and he can see. KawKway's father now loves Jesus and tries to get her to believe. But the Government loves her- they gave her candy and a ride to water- they wouldn't lie to her. Jesus made her people kill each other- Jesus killed her baby.
The government hears that Ratiti has been healed, they are not happy. They make her village walk down to another village where a solider lies dead on the side of the road "YOU WANT TO SEE? SEE WHAT 'JESUS' DID!! JESUS KILLS! JESUS KILLS!" the solider screams! The village people start screaming "WHO pulled the trigger!?!? it was you! it wasn't Jesus!" Another solider pulls up. sees what happens and begins to cry "SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND!!" "WHY WHY! Why did she have to die? she didn't!! SHE DIDN'T!" KawKway's American friends arrive they start yelling to the solider- 'it doesn't have to be like this!! she didnt have to die, it doesn't always have to be like this!!"
---SO pretty intense right!?! Well Hi I'm KawKway- at least that is the character I played this weekend. We had the Unreached People Group LTE this weekend. I didn't think it would be so intense- it was. It was all very real. It was really hard to pretend like I didn't know Jesus and that I hated him- but at the same time I realized so many people live this way. All over the world people live in fear of their false gods- or satan- that's horrible. and the government- i mean it was heart breaking.
One day a group of strangers comes to her village. They don't look or dress like they and they can't talk to her, but they are nice and she likes them.
Her Father and Mother need Kawkway to find a husband because she is pregnant so they give her to the leader of the strangers, Skylar. Having no idea what is going on Skylar joins KayKway as they dance around the fire, and they are married, except Skylar won't bow to the fire god, none of the strangers will. They won't worship the star gods, or Buddah instead they "crucify" eachother and play music in a forgein tongue.
The next morning Kawkay and her friends take the girl strangers to get water from the water god. They take the long way so they can stop and get flowers for thier god as a gift. On the way the strangers talk about how they only have one really big god, the village girls do not understand. The girls live in fear of thier gods, if they do not worhsip them and give them gifts they will strike them down or curse their people.
The girls refuse to bow down to the water god, they say thier god will be sad if they bow down. They tell Kawkway thier god loves them, she doesn't understand her gods are angry and don't love her. The village girls fear the water god will strike down the strangers but they insist thier god is bigger and will protect them. The village girls make the strangers walk 5 steps behind them so they don't get struck by lightning when they do.
All the tribes of the "back 40" are called to a meeting. The government is there. they tell KawKway and her people about the strangers. They tell us they are liars, that they lied to come here, they said they wanted to come so they could take our culture with them, instead they have been trying to change us to all be the same. They tell us the strangers are Americans who kill thier babies and make their 16 year olds work for McDonalds.
Then they bring out two of thier soilders who had been 'saved' by the Americans. They beat them in front of the tribes, they are traitors. They kill the wife as the husband watches then beat him to death. Next the Tribal Leader of Back 40 speaks to the people. He tells us the American's 'Jesus' is a liar and only brings divison. they bring outa native girl who has been converted- she never told because she was afraid. her brother can not believe his sister would betray him and their country like that. The Government handed him a gun- he shoots his sister than turns the gun on himself.
All this information confuses KawKway. Later that day KawKway loses her baby. She assumes it is Skylar that killed her baby because he tried to bring her Jesus that poisoned her baby.
The American girls try to explain that Jesus does love her and he has a plan for her life because he loves her. The government comes by the camp- and hear the name of Jesus and take away her friends to jail. They returned later- but she doesn't know what to think of them because the Government convinced her that they were liars.
A few hours later KawKway's dad- Ratiti comes running back to camp screaming because he was blind! All the village people pray to Buddah and the fire god- but still he screams with pain. The Americans lay hands on Ratiti and pray to Jesus and he can see. KawKway's father now loves Jesus and tries to get her to believe. But the Government loves her- they gave her candy and a ride to water- they wouldn't lie to her. Jesus made her people kill each other- Jesus killed her baby.
The government hears that Ratiti has been healed, they are not happy. They make her village walk down to another village where a solider lies dead on the side of the road "YOU WANT TO SEE? SEE WHAT 'JESUS' DID!! JESUS KILLS! JESUS KILLS!" the solider screams! The village people start screaming "WHO pulled the trigger!?!? it was you! it wasn't Jesus!" Another solider pulls up. sees what happens and begins to cry "SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND!!" "WHY WHY! Why did she have to die? she didn't!! SHE DIDN'T!" KawKway's American friends arrive they start yelling to the solider- 'it doesn't have to be like this!! she didnt have to die, it doesn't always have to be like this!!"
---SO pretty intense right!?! Well Hi I'm KawKway- at least that is the character I played this weekend. We had the Unreached People Group LTE this weekend. I didn't think it would be so intense- it was. It was all very real. It was really hard to pretend like I didn't know Jesus and that I hated him- but at the same time I realized so many people live this way. All over the world people live in fear of their false gods- or satan- that's horrible. and the government- i mean it was heart breaking.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Sorry Sorry Let's update you.
Sorry I have neglected you all for so long.
I am very busy and starting to get a social life. Which is good, I think.
So here’s the skinny. I went to the Dallas Battle Cry last weekend. I have never been to one and since that is what I do I thought I should probably see what happens. Well I thought it went really well. It was really humbling to be able to witness such a holy moment. When hundreds of teenagers and adults went forward and accepted Christ or recommitted, it was amazing. All of all hard work I do, or the slow boring work, or getting up at 4:30 to run was all worth it.
Not to say it went off perfectly there is a lot of apathy in Dallas, well in America but you know what I mean. People were talking the whole time. But the positives were it was sold out, over sold, packed out. The hallways were a mess- it caused drama but at the same time it was really cool to see. So it was good the worship (led by Unhindered) was really good. Leeland was amazing, Jeremy Camp, Lecrae (a Christian rap artist, so good) and the Newboys, who have a new lead singer (Michael Tate from DC Talk) I’ll be honest- it was awful. But I mean, he tried?
So I got to hang out with people other than my family core and get to know the people I work with which was really nice. I learned patience- again- of course. I need more of it.
Since I’ve been back- I’ve had a lot of opportunities to go off campus lately which has been really fun. I went to Gateway Church in Dallas where Kari Jobe hails from, and then Battle Cry, and Sonic I love me some Sonic.
This week has been a really really hard week for my family core. On Sunday we found out that one of the guys in my family core’s father died. It was really hard on everyone. This kid is like the sweetest guy you will ever meet. His dad was his best friend, so not only did he lose his father but his best friend. And now has to be the male of the household to his mother and two sisters. But I hear he is doing great and the Lord has already taught him so much.
Then these past two days a lot of other drama has been going down, nothing I care to really talk about. But I would ask that you PRAY for my Family Core – that God would defend those who deserve to be defended and justice would be served. I know it sounds serious, and it kind of is. I had a breakdown yesterday But don’t worry I am fine- I will be fine. But my sisters are hurting and I am trying to be here for them. The Lord has given me peace and I know this will work out according to his plan and I have surrendered it to him and will walk by faith.
These next couple of weekends are going to be busy but I will try and keep people updated.
Also- I am going to NY in June on a mission’s trip- if you feel led to donate to help me go on this trip and help spread God’s hope and love to the hurting people of NY- let me know. But pray I get the funding. God has the money- so I don’t need to worry.
Thank you so much for praying for me and for caring enough to read this.
Until next time--
I am very busy and starting to get a social life. Which is good, I think.
So here’s the skinny. I went to the Dallas Battle Cry last weekend. I have never been to one and since that is what I do I thought I should probably see what happens. Well I thought it went really well. It was really humbling to be able to witness such a holy moment. When hundreds of teenagers and adults went forward and accepted Christ or recommitted, it was amazing. All of all hard work I do, or the slow boring work, or getting up at 4:30 to run was all worth it.
Not to say it went off perfectly there is a lot of apathy in Dallas, well in America but you know what I mean. People were talking the whole time. But the positives were it was sold out, over sold, packed out. The hallways were a mess- it caused drama but at the same time it was really cool to see. So it was good the worship (led by Unhindered) was really good. Leeland was amazing, Jeremy Camp, Lecrae (a Christian rap artist, so good) and the Newboys, who have a new lead singer (Michael Tate from DC Talk) I’ll be honest- it was awful. But I mean, he tried?
So I got to hang out with people other than my family core and get to know the people I work with which was really nice. I learned patience- again- of course. I need more of it.
Since I’ve been back- I’ve had a lot of opportunities to go off campus lately which has been really fun. I went to Gateway Church in Dallas where Kari Jobe hails from, and then Battle Cry, and Sonic I love me some Sonic.
This week has been a really really hard week for my family core. On Sunday we found out that one of the guys in my family core’s father died. It was really hard on everyone. This kid is like the sweetest guy you will ever meet. His dad was his best friend, so not only did he lose his father but his best friend. And now has to be the male of the household to his mother and two sisters. But I hear he is doing great and the Lord has already taught him so much.
Then these past two days a lot of other drama has been going down, nothing I care to really talk about. But I would ask that you PRAY for my Family Core – that God would defend those who deserve to be defended and justice would be served. I know it sounds serious, and it kind of is. I had a breakdown yesterday But don’t worry I am fine- I will be fine. But my sisters are hurting and I am trying to be here for them. The Lord has given me peace and I know this will work out according to his plan and I have surrendered it to him and will walk by faith.
These next couple of weekends are going to be busy but I will try and keep people updated.
Also- I am going to NY in June on a mission’s trip- if you feel led to donate to help me go on this trip and help spread God’s hope and love to the hurting people of NY- let me know. But pray I get the funding. God has the money- so I don’t need to worry.
Thank you so much for praying for me and for caring enough to read this.
Until next time--
Saturday, February 21, 2009
crazy
so i can not believe that it has been so long since i last updated. but maybe that is a good thing, maybe that means that time is going by faster and not painfully slow. but maybe not.
so lets give you all the low down.
Over Valentine's Day weekend we had a fasting LTE (Life Transforming Event). we stopped eating Wednesday night and started eating again Sunday morning. (over 80 hours of no food, and i LOVE food) Thursday night we took a vow of silence. yeah- it was intense. I have never felt so small or fragile in my life. I think it hit me just how much i depend on God. Saturday morning I really thought I was going to die, but I made it. God is good! I learned a lot that weekend, a lot about what I am called to do with my life. I do not know everything and I do not even know if the things God told me are going to happen. it does not matter to me because I trust the Lord. He knows the future and He will reveal it to me when I am ready.
Which I think is key. because think about your life now, when you were 20 and God told you "you are going to marry this person, have this many kids, live here have this career, etc etc" you would probably freak out right? right. So i am just along for the ride. a friend of mine wrote this song 'moment' and one of the lines has really applied to my life lately. I will share it with you "and as you carry me, i'll go, where you lead" I love it, God is carrying me because he LOVES me. I love saying that. He LOVES ME. :) anyways he is carrying me and he is going to take me where he wants me to be and I am just along for the ride. it is so much better than worrying and trying to figure out the future. (PS that song is by Mark White Band on their new CD 'Now & Forever' in stores and on iTunes- GO GET IT!!!!)
I really need to journal more because I can not remember everything I have been learning. I have had break through after break through though. I have also been really tripped out by conversations i have had with certain people and certain songs i have heard, or verses i have read. the other night i had a total freak out and I talked to a friend of mine during my breakdown and (side note- i LOVE my friends Jesus has really blessed me with amazing friends they listen to me ramble and freak out anyways) i just started rambling about why i was freaking out he just reminded me of things that i knew and that i should not take what he says or what anyone says i need to find it our for myself. which is what i want. I want my relationship with Jesus to grow deeper and deeper so that when I go home I will not be shaken. Jesus has consumed my life and I will not lie to you for one second- I love it.
It is scary too because I have just a little bitty mind and I don't always get it and it makes me anxious. then i remember 1 John 4:28 "perfect love casts out fear!" THERE IS NO FEAR IN LOVE. Satan- has already been defeated he has no hold over me. he is relentless though and loves to fill my head with lies and doubts. well no more satan- no more i say!
oh here is my newest passion. It used to be my passion but i left myself get numb and let my standards go a little bit. well i am back. ready for it? drum roll....PURITY!!! oh my goodness I forgot how much my purity means to me. I was ashamed of the fact that I have yet to receive my first kiss. yup, that is right. I am 20 years old and I have never kissed a boy. I am proud. Oh wait that is not to say I think kissing is wrong- because I don't. I just have been in a situation where the person was worth giving it to. When Jesus brings me the right guy- i will kiss him. My purity and innocence mean so much to me. I can not believe that for one second I thought I was putting too much pressure and importance on it. false. I take it very seriously. VIRGINITY ROCKS MAN!!!
I also had a 'wisdom lunch' with Katie Luce- which for those of you who don't know is Ron Luce's (the president and founder of Teen Mania) wife. so it was pretty baller if i do say so myself! and i found a mentor! long story, for another time.
I got accepted to go to NEW YORK on a missions trip!!! I AM SO PUMPED!!!! I am writing support letters and trusting the $1,688 will come in! be praying for that.
so lets give you all the low down.
Over Valentine's Day weekend we had a fasting LTE (Life Transforming Event). we stopped eating Wednesday night and started eating again Sunday morning. (over 80 hours of no food, and i LOVE food) Thursday night we took a vow of silence. yeah- it was intense. I have never felt so small or fragile in my life. I think it hit me just how much i depend on God. Saturday morning I really thought I was going to die, but I made it. God is good! I learned a lot that weekend, a lot about what I am called to do with my life. I do not know everything and I do not even know if the things God told me are going to happen. it does not matter to me because I trust the Lord. He knows the future and He will reveal it to me when I am ready.
Which I think is key. because think about your life now, when you were 20 and God told you "you are going to marry this person, have this many kids, live here have this career, etc etc" you would probably freak out right? right. So i am just along for the ride. a friend of mine wrote this song 'moment' and one of the lines has really applied to my life lately. I will share it with you "and as you carry me, i'll go, where you lead" I love it, God is carrying me because he LOVES me. I love saying that. He LOVES ME. :) anyways he is carrying me and he is going to take me where he wants me to be and I am just along for the ride. it is so much better than worrying and trying to figure out the future. (PS that song is by Mark White Band on their new CD 'Now & Forever' in stores and on iTunes- GO GET IT!!!!)
I really need to journal more because I can not remember everything I have been learning. I have had break through after break through though. I have also been really tripped out by conversations i have had with certain people and certain songs i have heard, or verses i have read. the other night i had a total freak out and I talked to a friend of mine during my breakdown and (side note- i LOVE my friends Jesus has really blessed me with amazing friends they listen to me ramble and freak out anyways) i just started rambling about why i was freaking out he just reminded me of things that i knew and that i should not take what he says or what anyone says i need to find it our for myself. which is what i want. I want my relationship with Jesus to grow deeper and deeper so that when I go home I will not be shaken. Jesus has consumed my life and I will not lie to you for one second- I love it.
It is scary too because I have just a little bitty mind and I don't always get it and it makes me anxious. then i remember 1 John 4:28 "perfect love casts out fear!" THERE IS NO FEAR IN LOVE. Satan- has already been defeated he has no hold over me. he is relentless though and loves to fill my head with lies and doubts. well no more satan- no more i say!
oh here is my newest passion. It used to be my passion but i left myself get numb and let my standards go a little bit. well i am back. ready for it? drum roll....PURITY!!! oh my goodness I forgot how much my purity means to me. I was ashamed of the fact that I have yet to receive my first kiss. yup, that is right. I am 20 years old and I have never kissed a boy. I am proud. Oh wait that is not to say I think kissing is wrong- because I don't. I just have been in a situation where the person was worth giving it to. When Jesus brings me the right guy- i will kiss him. My purity and innocence mean so much to me. I can not believe that for one second I thought I was putting too much pressure and importance on it. false. I take it very seriously. VIRGINITY ROCKS MAN!!!
I also had a 'wisdom lunch' with Katie Luce- which for those of you who don't know is Ron Luce's (the president and founder of Teen Mania) wife. so it was pretty baller if i do say so myself! and i found a mentor! long story, for another time.
I got accepted to go to NEW YORK on a missions trip!!! I AM SO PUMPED!!!! I am writing support letters and trusting the $1,688 will come in! be praying for that.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
I miss city lights.
Carrolton, Texas.
its a place, look it up.
that is where I am currently. I am staying with my roommate Amy and her family.
Amy's family works for Gospel for Asia. which apparently is huge and world-wide.
missed the memo on THAT one. anyways last night we went to an all night prayer
meeting. well...we stayed 'till 12:30.
anyways here's what has been goin' on the HA.
things are getting better, and busier. which is good. i am so much happier- joyful- than when I first got here. I still would give up the 70 degree weather to go home. but I know this is where God wants me to be.
I am learning a lot about myself and God. I am falling head over heals for Him. I'm starting to get a better idea of what God wants me to do with my life. but I don't know for sure what I am going to do next year.
there is always the option of staying here a second year. I would not enjoy it but I have to be open to it.
I LOVE being home but at the same time- what am I going to do there? ya know?
I want to have a clear purpose next year. I am praying about it- the idea that is starting to come is a little far fetched.
SO if you want me home next year, pray that God opens up doors and shows me something to do there.
Also- I am applying for my mission trip next week. I'm thinkin' NY or Australia.
Australia is $4000 but people keep telling me that Jesus will provide.
but NY is more along the lines of what I want I feel my passion is.
Which in case you were wondering...is this country. If you havn't noticed it is broken, hurting, and without hope.
Teen Mania is all about reaching this generation and raising up missionaries to go into all world.
which I think is super important but in the back of my head I think "what about the people here?!"
the people who were raised in church but have no idea what it means to have a relationship with Jesus.
what about all the people out there who don't get how much He loves us. who is going to tell them they are beautiful? who is going to tell them that no matter what they do Jesus will always always love them? who is going to show them that they can live a live living for God that is full of joy and love? WHO? and then I say "send me! let me show them"
the missionary videoes are all really touching but the stories that make me tear up are the ones about the teenagers who cry out to God and commit to help their generation. I want to bless the people here who ARE going out. I want people to see the importance of striving for excellence. I want to be behind the scenes, I want to help equip people to go out and spread the word and to just love people. I can't put into words everything that has been on my heart lately. but that's the basic idea.
I am not sure if Teen Mania is where I am supposed to be forever, I don't think it is. I think I want to take what they are doing and do this at home. But I have NO clue what that even means.
that is all for now. thank you so much for praying God has been blessing me so much lately- I don't think I deserve it. I have not had the best attitude at all.
please keep praying though it is not easy here.
Friday, January 30, 2009
a day in the life!
To all of your who faithfully support me in prayer and finacially:
I just wanted to show you a day in the life of an Honor Academy intern:
I just wanted to show you a day in the life of an Honor Academy intern:
Thursday, January 29, 2009
I got the Joy.
Sometimes it almost creeps me out how quickly God answers prayers around here. But creeped out isn’t the right word, it amazes me. Here are a few examples: yesterday I was just having the worst day. Everything was getting to me and I just wanted to have a friend come hug me and let me cry. So many were on my heart and I just felt so alone because no one here really understands me. I mean Jesus does and Jesus is here. But anyways! I was writing in my journal about how sad I was and how my heart felt like it was breaking for this generation. And I just wanted to be hugged and then I had to go to Wed night service. Well God has placed it on Mr. Hasz’s heart to encourage the interns. I mean it was a breathe of fresh air. He just told us how God is smiling at because he are living a life pleasing to Him. We threw off everything that slows us down and are running after God. Then we sang “the enemy’s been defeated. Death couldn’t hold you down, gunna life our voice in victory gunna make your praises loud. Shout unto God with a voice of triumph, Shout onto God with a voice of praise” and it just hit me. The Joy of the Lord. We serve an awesome God. Truly nothing is above him. And yet he cares enough about each one of us to know every detail of our lives. I mean these are simple truths but it hit me. I had a break trough. Not even death, hell, and the grave could keep him. And he loves ME! Anyways now I am babbling, but I am so blessed. I have so much joy knowing Jesus. I could really go on and on and on. But I won’t.
Also this morning in 360 (women’s bible study basically) I wrote down on my notebook “I want to learn to pray for others, make me a prayer warrior” well then this morning I got an email called “Prayer Warriors” I mean just crazy things like that happen all the time here. Now I still can not wait to go home but I am so excited that I am here and I am learning about God and He is changing me and filling me with His love and joy. And I just can not wait to pour it out again. I have a long long way to go though.
Anyways thank you guys for praying for me, God is hearing you!! Keep praying and pray for my friend Chase is in serious financial trouble, he might get sent home b/c of money issues. I know God wants him here please just pray that God will give him the money.
Also this morning in 360 (women’s bible study basically) I wrote down on my notebook “I want to learn to pray for others, make me a prayer warrior” well then this morning I got an email called “Prayer Warriors” I mean just crazy things like that happen all the time here. Now I still can not wait to go home but I am so excited that I am here and I am learning about God and He is changing me and filling me with His love and joy. And I just can not wait to pour it out again. I have a long long way to go though.
Anyways thank you guys for praying for me, God is hearing you!! Keep praying and pray for my friend Chase is in serious financial trouble, he might get sent home b/c of money issues. I know God wants him here please just pray that God will give him the money.
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